Making Nursery Plans

June 29, 2007

Dear Noah or Kira,

Today, your Dad and I went to Sherwin Williams to pick up the house paint that we will need for your nursery. The color of the walls will be about the same as the yellow in the picture frames in the nursery graphic above. The bedding set shown in the picture is the one that we hope to get for you at Babies-R-Us. After your room is painted, we will have to go to our friends Elizabeth and Dennis's house to get your crib out of "storage". You will love Elizabeth and Dennis. Elizabeth makes REALLY yummy cookies, and Dennis is really funny. Daddy and I can't wait to personally introduce you to them! We are so proud of you for gaining a heartbeat and for being so strong. Grow, baby, grow! We want you to see your room and meet your big brother when you're ready! You're doing great!

Love,
Mommy

Prayers for the Family

Dear Heavenly Father,

I praise you for this wonderful baby, perfectly made. I praise you for the steady beat of baby Noah or Kira's heart. I pray that you will continue to help the baby to grow appropriately, and to keep D's health in good condition. I pray that you will be with the entire family, and that you will breathe your peace that passes all understanding into the minds of those family members that are the most closely involved with this adoption. I pray that you will help us all to understand your perfect plan for the life of this unborn child. I pray that J & D will not be overcome with worry, but will find comfort in their decisions throughout this pregnancy. I pray that the other members of the family will become more and more accepting of this unusual adoption arrangement. I pray that the actions that each of us take each day will be according to your perfect plan. Thank you so much for the opportunity to grow our family in this unique way. Please ease the minds of those who may be troubled by J & D's decision.

In Jesus's name I pray,

AMEN.

We have a heartbeat and a due date!!

WE HAVE A HEARTBEAT!!!!!

YAY!!!!

June 29, 2007

Today, J & D went to the OBGYN to get an ultrasound done. The doctor found a very defined, perfect baby in a appropriately proportioned gestational sac with a very strong heartbeat. Praise God!

The NEW estimated due date is January 29, 2008! (Sooner than we thought!)

J & D are coming over to our house tomorrow to show us the ultrasound pictures. J says that you can really tell that it is a baby - and not just a blip on the ultrasound film. He seemed very excited that the picture is nothing like the one that Jennifer Aniston's character, Rachel, received when she was pregnant with Emma on the show, "Friends". (Rachel cries in the episode when she can't find her baby on the ultrasound screen.) We are VERY excited that Noah or Kira is healthy, and that D is doing well.

What a miracle!

Dear Noah or Kira

June 27, 2007

Dear Noah or Kira,

Oh precious little one....you are already so loved. I know that I should not be as excited as I am that you may one day call me "Mommy", but I can't help it. From the moment today that I knew that you exist, I just can't help but become attached to you. If you should go home to live with your birth parents, I will be O.K. with that, but I will also be devastated, there is no doubt about it! I definitely want to call you my son or daughter. Your Dad and I have been trying for many years to have a little brother or sister for your big brother, Ian. We are so excited that we finally might have the chance to bring you home with us in February. Oh, how we pray for that to happen!! I want you to know that we love you so much that we have already named you. You are wanted so much that we have already picked out a color for your nursery and have made plans to paint it! I am overjoyed at the thought of holding you for the first time, and meeting you face-to-face. I can't wait to be your mother.

Love,
Mommy

Prayer for the Baby

June 27, 2007

Dear Heavenly Father,

Please surround Baby Kira or Noah with your protection and love. Please help the baby to be healthy and strong, and to grow appropriately. We pray that the ultrasound scheduled for Friday will show that the baby has a heartbeat, and that the gestational sac is proportional to the age of the fetus. Please be with J & D, and uphold them with your peace and grace. Please help Jim and me to be mindful of J & D's feelings, and to always keep their best interests at heart. Please be with D, and, if at all possible, please lessen her morning sickness. Dear Lord, please help me to not get too excited, because I know that I couldn't take it if I get my hopes up too high, and then my dreams are dashed. Please help me to deal with this anxiousness in a positive way.

In Jesus' name I pray,
Amen.

Today we heard the news

Oh WOW.

I can't believe this. It is almost unreal. Today, J & D told me that they would like for us to adopt THEIR baby. I CANNOT BELIEVE IT. After 2 1/2 years of trying to conceive a baby, I am too scared to even think that it could be true. It is too good to be true. I am too excited to even sleep, and so I am creating this blog as a keepsake for baby "Noah Alexander" or "Kira Alexandria". I am also going to keep a separate prayer journal for the baby. Some of these prayers will also be included on this blog. I am amazed and humbled by the choice that J & D have made. I will forever be thankful for their decision. I am in awe of this entire process, and I give thanks to God for creating this life. What a blessing!

Kristina